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yueenmun soh
malaysia
birthdate falls in june
luvves music & dance but most of all really excited bout god
smiley faces make my day :) :p

i, yueenmun am sold out for jesus and his call to meet the needs of others and be bold to tell my story to everyone

 
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That Day
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Well that day, that day
What a mess, what a marvel
I walked into that cloud again and I lost myself
And I'm sad, sad, sad, small, alone, scared
Craving purity, a fragile mind
And a gentle spirit
That day, that day
What a marvellous mess
This is all I can do, I'm done, to be me
Sad, scared, small, alone, beautiful
It's supposed to be like this
I accept everything
It's supposed to be like this
That day, that day
I lay down beside myself
In this feeling of pain, sadness, scared, small
Climbing, crawling towards the light
And it's all that I see
And I'm tired and I'm right
And I'm wrong and it's beautiful
That day, that day
What a mess, what a marvel
We're all the same and no one thinks so
And it's OK
And I'm small and I'm divine and it's beautiful
And it's coming and already here
And it's absolutely perfect

by natalie imbruglia

that day was the most peculiar day for me ...
i woke up in a state so sad i almost cried ...
i dreamt that i had pancreatic cancer ...
and the doctor told me that i only had 1 mth to live ...
it was strange that this guy i knew from back in 1st yr uni was the one who was with me and the only one who knew, as he was just some senior i barely spoke to ...
so the 2 of us broke the news to my mother ...
and i reckon the sadness that i felt mainly came from seeing a my mother cry ...
not the fact that i was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer ...

i got ready to head off to the hospital despite the sad feeling i was trying to shake off ...
i sat at the bus stop & this doubtful question hit me ...
see, previously when i was living at jesmond ...
the bus which was full of school students would empty out at the stop before mine and so i had plenty of seats to choose from when i got on ...
but now, getting on at uni drive is a completely different story ...
i always end up standing right next to the bus driver clinging to his door for dear life whenever he cornered ...
so i sat at the bus stop with a mind conflict ...
my heart told me to pray & ask for a seat on the bus ...
but my mind told me, what are the chances? you know for sure there will be not a seat on the bus ...
every morning it is jam-packed! are you trying to test god?
and so i sat there, wondering if i shud or shud not pray ...
7:55am came & went, which was when the bus was scheduled to arrive ...
and before i knew it, it was 8:15am and i was running back to the hse, pounding on the door & making sandra drive me to the hospital ...
the bus never came ...
great answer to my question god ...

lately i've been really tired, dizzy & having headaches whilst on the wards ...
i went in to review one of my patients, a middle-aged woman ...
opposite her was an elderly man who apparently had been waiting to get a scan done since 2 days ago, poor thing ...
i glanced back at him & saw him clad in a white hospital gown clearly not wearing anything underneath ...
i saw his back that's how i know ...
as i continued reviewing my patient, the nurse came in and told the man to get ready for he was finally going for his scan ...
just as the nurse left, i decided to glance back & see his reaction ...
CRIKEY!
the man had pulled off his hospital gown & stood next to his bed stark naked ...

i wandered back to the n&d office to do some assessment ...
lately i've mastered power-walking up & down the corridor on the 2nd floor ...
however, sometimes it is impossible to when there are 2 hospital beds being pushed one after another, some poor guy on crutches, a family with screaming toddlers and oh much more ...
as i'm typing this, i'm recalling this girl walking in front of me ...
she had this slow swagger like all the world can wait for her to strut down the corridor ...
she was wearing sweat pants with the words ELMO GROUPIE splashed across her bum ...
and then it struck me, made-up cartoon/puppet characters are just as popular as celebrities ...
damn it, i shud just be make-believe then ...
seriously, elmo groupie?!? are we gonnabe idolising fast food & snack items (oreo groupie! hell no) ...

it's finally lunchtime & i decide to use the internet at the student library ...
i look out the windows and lo & behold guess wat ...
mcdonalds is giving free food on the hospital grounds ...
how awesome is that, so much for health & healthy eating *shakes head*

that's how the 1st half of my day is like ...
time for me to say goodbye to john hunter & hello mater :(




fave song of the day : guy sebastian & jordin sparks - art of love

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