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First Time

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky that's under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time

by lifehouse

well, the lyrics do match wat i wanna blog bout ... only tt it's not bout a guy or a relationship ... it's bout this pair of sticks tt i happen 2 own ...

i dun usually blog bout how i feel but yesterday wuz an experience i'll nvr 4get ... and if one of the ppl, who were there 2 see me yesterday reads this ... then they'll noe how i truly felt ... yesterday wuz my first time playing drums 4 campuscity ... playing drums 4 me is not a big deal ... but 4 campuscity? ... yeah, then it's freaking out time ... well, a first time is alwaz when unplanned things happen ... rite? ... anyway, all the musicians were called 4 prac on wednesday ... despite my not having class ... plus a thunderstorm on the way ... i drove 2 sj in the evening 4 it ... when prac started ... the tension as well as pressure wuz really building up ... it wuz so thick i almost cudn't breathe, k ... i cudn't even feel the beat & all ... the ques running thru my mind wuz, 'wat did i get myself in2?' ... it's not tt i din wanna serve in this area ... it wuz more of at tt point of time ... i wuz struggling 2 meet every1's expectations ... the worship leaders, other musicians & drummers ...i think the worship leader wuz quite frustrated cos he cudn't get the feel of my playing ... another drummer wanted me 2 play louder ... i thot they were all gonna eat me up, seriously ... but i din feel frustrated ... juz scared ... tt maybe i wuzn't gud enuff perhaps? ... in order 2 be a musician ... i feel tt you hafta be able 2 connect with the music ... communication with the other musicians is oso very important ... but during prac, i wuz sooooo focused on playing the rite beats ... whacking as hard as i cud ... my creativity juz din flow ... but i seriously wanna thank sum1 4 easing the tension on wednesday ... you noe who you are ... thanx 4 cueing me in & out of songs ... you seriously helped 2 lift the tension ... like you cud read my mind or sumthin .... hahahah, scary but kewl ... and when the time came on thurs ... thank god everything juz flowed ... the rhythm & music juz poured outta me ... i wuz able 2 drum out everything tt wuz in my heart ... actually now i kinda understand the whole worshipping while playing music now ... you juz get tt feeling in ur heart ... indescribable =)

me & kaykay b4 campuscity ... she came along 4 awhile ... 4 support? ... dunnola ... maybe juz 2 pass time b4 she got picked up ... hahahah ...

so yeah, yesterday wuz a kewl but kerazee day ... so many things happened tt i wud have juz died ... but it wuz all taken care of ... it's probably my testimony of the yr ... if you wanna noe wat other kerazee things happened 2 me yesterday, ask! ... one of it left me shocked 4 the rest of the nite ... scary leh ... and i hope my testimony inspires you 4 the rest of the week =)

k, now tt i'm too lazy 2 update on other events ... let me post random pics ... my specialty =)

wat do you do during a boring lecture? ... eat in class! ... i'm snacking way too much on chocs man ... influenced by kaykay ... tt's my 2nd bar 4 the week ... i had a mars bar on wednesday ... i'm turning in2 a 'C.O.W' ... chocolate-obsessed-woman ... heheheh ... got tt fr lena ...

and now kaykay will present 2 you how 2 eat jacob's biscuits in class ... take it away gurl!

step1 - dig 4 biscuit

step2 - examine the chosen one

step3 - put it in mouth

step4 - and smile =)

fave song of the day : aly & aj - potential break up