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Saturday, October 17, 2009 BlurryEverything's so blurry and everyone's so fake and everybody's empty and everything is so messed up pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl You could be my someone you could be my scene you know that i'll protect you from all of the obscene I wonder what you're doing imagine where you are there's oceans in between us but that's not very far Can you take it all away can you take it all away well ya shoved it in my face this pain you gave to me Can you take it all away can you take it all away well ya shoved it my face Everyone is changing there's noone left that's real to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl You could be my someone you could be my scene you know that i will save you from all of the unclean I wonder what you're doing I wonder where you are There's oceans in between us but that's not very far Nobody told me what you thought nobody told me what to say everyone showed you where to turn told you when to runaway nobody told you where to hide nobody told you what to say everyone showed you where to turn showed you when to runaway This pain you gave to me You take it all You take it all away... by puddle of mudd amidst the exam prep & stress mode, everything seems so blurry ... there's always that sea of uncertainty which lies within us ... end of year always causes lotsa decision making & questions, which we don't have the answers to ... i hate uncertainty! i've come to terms with that now ... i just want sum1 to tell me what to do & know that it is the right thing 4 me ... in this aspect, surprises are NOT a good thing ... but then one would ask, "where is your faith, yueenmun?" *SiGH* pictures from jaemie's bday ... we went to play laser tag at wallsend ... matt, joyce, judy, layping, me, nerissa, rachel, allycia, shelley, jaemie & val ... the poser effect got spoilt :(  just before the game started ...  me with my game passes, we played 3 games :)  a group shot of every1 who played after all the games ...  i love laser tag! i hate exams! i hate uncertainty! ... and you know i love you :) fave song of the day : cascada - evacuate the dancefloor blogged at { 8:39:00 AM } Thursday, September 24, 2009 Everything Can Change Do do do do do do There's no easy way to figure out Why everything we planned gets turned around Nothing accidental, got it down to a "T" So why do things never end the way you think they're gonna be If all is for sure is that no one knows that don't be too quick to decide Cause everything can change when you least expect it Can't stop what you can't control Gotta learn how to just let go Everything can change No, you can't perfect it Some things you can't explain Yeah! Ooooooooooooooooooo Do do do do do do do Ooooooooooooooooooo There's no easy way to plan ahead Can't wait to get there, but we end up here instead Anything can happen due to what it does Somethings turned out much better the way it is with us If all is for sure is that no one knows that don't be too quick to decide Cause everything can change when you least expect it Can't stop what you can't control Gotta learn how to just let go Everything can (oh!) change No you can't perfect it Somethings you can't explain Everything can change when you least expect it Can't stop what you can't control Gotta learn how to just let go Everything (yeaah) can change No, you can't profect it Somethings you can't explain Everything can change (everything can change) Can't stop what you can't control Gotta learn how to just let go Everything can change, everything can change Somethings you can't explain Everything can change by spectacular! cast & nikko let's get on to the topic of change shall we ... i guess we all know that some changes are good & some are NOT so good ... on monday i met one of my friends at the uni library ... which is rather rare cos i'm hardly ever at the library, hahahah ... he told me he was moving out of ih on friday and then the following tuesday he was leaving to another country 4 placement ... basically the whole point of our conversation was he wanted me to help him with something ... he wanted me to look after his gf whilst he was away ... his gf currently attends my bible study & i've gotten to know her better thru the many camps we've both attended over the past yr ... and after he asked me that, he started on the whole how it felt to be leaving & for the other who was gonnabe left behind ... i'd discovered this back in 2007 & 2008 when i myself experienced the left behind-ness & the leaving to a new place ... and in my opinion, being left behind is far worst than setting out alone to a new place ... the amount of adapting & stuff you hafta overcome is massive ... for me, it was horrible bcos i was in the same place but the ppl who were there with me b4 weren't there ... so at the end of 2006, after college yr ... all my classmates started to travel overseas 4 uni ... but i had decided 2 remain in m'sia the following yr b4 going overseas ... and i remember at the start of 2007, i regretted completely ... i had chosen to start my degree program in the same college ... so you can imagine, i was walking thru all the same corridors & classrooms but only this time i was alone ... everywhere i glanced i wud be like, 'oh i used to sit there with ------- in btw classes' and '------- used to sit here & stone thru lunchtime' ... one word, h-o-r-r-i-b-l-e :( and at the beginning of 2008 when it was finally my turn to leave ... i was probably upset a whole mth b4 my flight ... majorly cos i'd grown really attached to a bunch of youths at charlene's church & also the youths at my church ... and when i was on the plane taking off, i remember opening the msg box my friends had made 4 me and i had tears streaming down my face as i read each of the msges ... but you know wat, i didn't feel as bad as i had previously when i was left behind ... i dunno, guess that's just my opinion ... so yeah, being left behind is horrible :( anyway, enuff typing bout opinions & stuff ... it's time 4 photos!!! photos are good :) val put milky way on me whilst i was doing my assignment & started snapping photos ...  i discovered one thing ... eventho i luvve my sea creature stuffed toys ... bears still look good on a bed ...  other things besides bears just don't look as good ... or maybe it's time 4 a change ...  val luvves bears ...  she has a funny way of sleeping with them till they end up like this ... note : she's under her comforter fast asleep!  fave song of the day : all american rejects - i wanna blogged at { 9:40:00 PM } Friday, September 18, 2009 Black Roses RedCan I ask you a question please Promise you won't laugh at me Honestly I'm standing here Afraid I'll be betrayed. As twisted as it seems, I only fear love when it's in my dreams So let in the morning light and let the darkness fade away Can you turn my black roses red? Can you turn my black roses red? Drowning in my loneliness How long must I hold my breath So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea I reach to the sky as the moon looks on One last year has come and gone It's time to let your love rain down on me Can you turn my black roses red? (x3) Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame it on love (x6) Can you turn my black roses red? (x3) Cuz I'm feelin like I'll blame in on love I'm feeling like I'll blame it on love (until fades) by alana grace i think this song has been my theme song for the past 5 weeks ... it's taken from the soundtrack 4 the movie 'the sisterhood of the traveling pants' ... so the story goes like this ... once upon a time ... there lived a fish in the river called blakie ... he was swimming along the river bank ... it wasn't long b4 he caught sight of his mouse friend, jojo ... jojo, one of blakie's best friends, was looking quite nervous standing at the edge of the river bank ... "what's wrong, jojo?" blakie called out ... "i want to go swimming but i'm afraid of the water", jojo answered ... and this is wat blakie said to jojo ... "there's nothing to be afraid of, jojo ... look at me, i've been swimming for a very long time ... why don't you jump in the water & hold on 2 my tail ... that way you will be safe ... i promise i won't swim too fast as i don't want to lose you ... you are one of my best friends ... afterall, you do want to swim really badly right?" yeah but blakie wasn't really thinking when he answered jojo, did he? just because he told jojo there's nothing to be afraid of, how does jojo know he's telling the truth ... he obviously told her not to be afraid cos that's probably what he thought she wanted to hear ... but why didn't he tell her about the larger fish in the river? did he 4get? or maybe he just thought it was just swimming & other creatures didn't exist in the water when u're swimming & having a good time, tough luck! ... wat happens if he gets distracted and swims off? or if he suddenly didn't feel like having jojo grip his tail 2 swim around anymore ... he didn't think that maybe the current of the waters might change & jojo might lose grip of his tail, which was out of his control ... or jojo would suddenly lose courage & let go of his tail, which he also had no control over ... and just because jojo wants to swim, it didn't mean that she was willing to risk her life just 4 that moment of fun ... sumtimes you hafta weigh the pros & cons ... and just because jojo said she wanted to, doesn't mean she has to ... *end of story* pictures fr our steamboat dinner at cheryl & suzie's place... cheryl is like a masterchef at wanton making ... check it out!  all our food 4 the nite ...  me, shulin & jenn getting the food cooked ...  doesn't the dinner look awesome :)  this is my fave shot of the night ... probably cos it caught cheryl & i at random ... i know i was crossing over the electric cooker's wire but i can't remember who said wat 2 make cheryl laugh ...  we played with sparklers, leftover fr my bday ...  and blew heaps of bubbles, also leftover fr my bday ...  the guys were just chatting & watching tv indoors ... to my best fren weiyang, hang in there buddy ... cheer up, eat well, study & i'll see you soon! all the best 4 exams & i sayang you lots :)  fave song of the day : kelly clarkson - already gone blogged at { 2:12:00 PM } Monday, August 17, 2009 Faraway/A Thousand Miles Away (Qian Li Zhi Wai)Wo song ni li kai / qian li zhi wai / ni wu sheng hei bai I send you off to a thousand miles away, you are silent, black and white Chen mo nian dai / huo xu bu gai / tai yao yuan de xiang ai Perhaps a love so far apart shouldn’t exist in this silent era Wo song ni li kai / tian yai* zhi wai / ni shi fou hai zai I send you away beyond the end of Earth, are you still there? Qing sheng he lai / sheng si nan cai / yong yi sheng / qu deng dai Where is the zither** sound coming from? It’s hard to predict life and death. [I will] use [my] whole life to wait by jay chou finally, the post bout jay chou's concert :) no we didn't travel very faraway ... but this was probably one of the best songs i luvved bout the nite ... we just went to sydney ... but one wud ask, y was i there? i can't read chinese, i can't speak chinese & i can't understand chinese ... well, the story goes ... me, cheryl & shulin bought the concert ticket as a birthday gift 4 jennifer ... then we figured that it was quite pointless giving jennifer a ticket & expecting her to go alone ... so me & cheryl decided to get tickets as well, whereas shulin went partying in nz ... we got pretty good seats actually ... at the side but very near to the stage ... 
that was what the ticket looked like ... and some phone company had jay chou's face on a phone sim card ... 
we spent 3 days & 2 nites in sydney ... we obviously didn't go down just 4 the concert ... food & shopping was on our mind too ... this was on the last day at a japanese restaurant ... 
all thru the trip we had chinese (dim sum), korean, thai, malaysian (which was really bad), japanese, i'm not sure if we had annything else ... oh and plenty of milk tea fr easy way :) we walked around the city heaps ... 
and played in the hotel room at night ... or rather midnite ... val, anne, jennifer, cheryl & me ... 
val & anne went 4 the concert too when they heard we were going ... but they had separate seats as they bought their tickets separately... plenty of camwhoring as well ... me & jennifer ... 
cheryl, anne & val, they all happen to have red pyjamas ... 
i luvve these pictures :) 
fave song of the day : beyonce - sweet dreams blogged at { 8:20:00 AM } Monday, August 03, 2009 No Sleep Tonight You can't stop this, feeling! You can't run away, baby i'm whats on your mind You can't stop this, feeling! There's no escape, No sleep tonight, You won't get, no sleep tonight by the faders i'm just about to go into week 3 of my semester & i alredi feel like my battery has died ... wat is happening??? seriously!!! i have had sum form of activity to attend to every evening ... there's not one day i'm just in my room doing wat i want ... i constantly have to run thru my mind wat activity i've got to be at & at wat time everyday ... which is putting my daily planner to its full use ... but it's wearing me out badly ... mind you we're not talking bout activities related 2 uni work here ... this is the part where mom & dad frowns at me ... oh well, i've got pictures :) we just had our barahineban (my residential college) version of masterchef ... masterchef has been really huge in australia ... we just finished our 1st season on tv ... so here jess & stu have revealed the core ingredients to the participants in the common room ... the core ingredients are tinned tomatos & coconut milk ...  you shud not be surprised that my roomate, val took part in the competition ... here are most of the pictures of the end result of all the cooking ...       these are val's dishes ... cheese-baked rice :)  and turkey in chilli-coconut sauce ... i gave her the recipe 4 this :)  and guess who won the competition? my roomate, val! she won a blender ... pretty cool rite? anyway, meet my new bed-sharer (is there such a word???) ... petrie, the frog :) he's very sad tho, dunno y he looks so sad ...  ok, that's all 4 now ... i'm really exhausted & scrounging 4 time ... so many more updates 2 go tho (jay chou's concert, flight back 2 nc, steamboat nite etc.) ... fave song of the day : plain white ts - 1, 2, 3, 4 |
